Sometimes it's as simple as this
Updated: Jan 22, 2018
I am at a point in my life where I know my purpose and I am ready to stick with it. However, knowing my purpose and having a plan is not enough. I must be willing to step out and take action along with some healthy risks in order to achieve my dreams and goals, otherwise they will remain a meaningful but unrealized vision.
Sometimes the simplest things are not always the easiest to do. To begin takes courage and often a walk into the unknown. As someone who suffers from anxiety and panic attacks, the unknown used to be one of the scariest places for me. I have learned though that It is okay to be afraid, what is not okay is to let fear stop me from doing what it is I am meant to do.
It takes trust to know that if you have something written on your heart to accomplish that you have all that it takes to do it. You may not know how everything will fall into place but that is where faith comes in: that believing in what cannot be seen but know to be true.
My life has continually shown me that my needs will be met and all that has happened so far has prepared me for what comes next. I still have moments of self-doubt but in those moments I turn the situation over to God and rest in the knowing that all is exactly as it is meant to be. I see life as more of an adventure now. I see possibility, enjoy being fully present, and look for the blessing in life's challenges. I celebrate accomplishments small and big. That to me is living a life worth living.
Because I have the self-awareness regarding my impulsive tendencies, I take time to pray about all kinds of thoughts and ideas that pop into my mind. By pausing and being still I am able to make sure that the thought or idea is in alignment with who I am and the person I want to be. This helps keep my life moving in a positive direction.
I can accept and flow with the process of continually becoming. There was a time I strived for perfection and that led to getting stuck and definitely not starting. Perfection is unattainable. If I were perfect I wouldn't need to be here still learning. There was a time I couldn't say this but I can say it now: I want to be here, living my life, learning and loving up to my last day on this earth. The idea of perfection is unrealistic. I can do my best. I can be the best version of me possible. I can pray for guidance and discernment and proceed accordingly.
This doesn't necessarily mean that all will go as planned; however, by remaining flexible and bending with the twists and turns I no longer have to break. I can adjust. I am also free to change my mind, take an alternate route and if need be I can begin again any time I choose.
"Be willing to be a beginner every single morning." - Meister Eckhart
"Remember not the former things, nor consider the things of old. Behold, I am doing a new thing; now it springs forth, do you not perceive it? I will make a way in the wilderness and rivers in the desert".
(Isaiah 43:18 - 19, ESV)